even if it kills me

I'm getting my wisdom teeth pulled in the morning. What a way to spend spring break. This is how excited I am about it: .1% excited. (just because I know it's an excuse to eat disgusting amounts of ice cream)
There's a host of reasons I'm not excited though, but one surpasses them all-- hence the 98.9%
My odds of actually going to Oklahoma City are slim to none. Trust me, I will be pushing for it til the day I go back to Covenant (and even once I'm back I'll probably still be thinking of ways to go). I'm super stubborn and pretty adamant about this, that I will try everything in my power to get there.
I've thought through every option I could possibly think of--planes, trains, automobiles...horseback, roller-skates, uni-cycling, apparating.
I thought of not taking the Dallas-El Paso half of my trip home and having Taylor pick me up and us both going. He even agreed. My parents on the other hand, the ones that paid for my ticket home, not so thrilled.
I've tried talking anyone into skipping classes to drive up Wednesday after my eye appt. They're all to studious. What ever happened to living a little? Reckless abandon? Jump first, fear later?
It's funny when I try to explain it to people who know nothing about the situation in Central Africa, the LRA, Kony, Invisible Children or Resolve Uganda. Mostly I just get strange looks and a few comments about being "crazy" "extreme" "hardcore activist" etc.
I think if they understood the situation, really understood, they would want to go too.
Most of my friends like the idea, in theory, but would never actually want to camp out in the freezing weather after driving for 11 hours.
I think part of the reason why I'm so drawn to this is because I missed the GNC, Displace Me and The Resuce. I stuck to complacency when I should've acted and nothing makes me more sick than watching video footage or hearing stories of those events and knowing I could've been a part of it if only I had opened up my eyes and heart.
I do believe in this bill, I do believe an end to Africa's longest running war is possible, I do believe in the work that both IC and Resolve are doing, and I will advocate for them. And because of that, I so much want to be a part of something big.
I will not recognize defeat. I will be stubborn. I will fight. I will push. And I will get to Oklahoma, even if it kills me.