I'm going to a school that costs ungodly amounts of money and for whatever reason I don't value the education offered here. I've used the line "I'm just so busy" more times than I can count this semester, either to cop out of something or because I'm cramming. But if I'm totally honest with myself, it's really because I'm lazy and I just don't care. I don't care that my parents are sacrificing so much to send me here. I don't care that I have a top quality education at the tip of my fingers. I don't care that my professors genuinely care about me and my success but also about what's going on in my life. I don't care that I've been shown grace time and time again when I turn something in late. I don't care about grades and I just don't care about learning. Wow. How tragic.

Even as I sit here writing about how much I wish I cared about valuing education I have 3 papers and 2 tests looming over my head.

And what's ironic is that I desperately desire knowledge and understanding. It seems like every time I sit down to write a paper or study for a test though something more exciting or glamorous comes up. I loathe facebook, and yet I spend a good majority of my day on it. I so badly want to break out of this routine of education indifference that I've managed to slide into. I want to be an intelligent person. I want to soak up this education while I have it so readily available. I don't just want to make As (which isn't happening anyways) but I want to learn and care about what I'm studying. I'm sick of staying up til 3 am working on stuff that should've been done ages ago and could've easily been done if I had just gotten off my ass and done it. I'm sick of being so distracted. I'm sick of blaming everything but myself for my poor study habits. I'm sick at not being able to manage my time.

So step 1-get off the computer
step 2- dust off that text book and crack it open
step 3- work.